Graduation & School Life

Today i officially graduate from SOTA (sch of the arts) after 5 years and i am EXTREMELY happy.its been like my wish to leave the school for a very long time and now i'm finally done with it.

I must say that this journey was one of the worst ones i've experienced and i'm here to rant it all out so i can put it all behind me.
 
The principal hates me. She goes around telling teachers to tell my friends to stay away from me because i'm a BAD INFLUENCE and this was just after 2 months of starting school.
In the first place, how do you tell if i'm a bad influence just after 2 months? I never skipped sch, never smoked, never put make up, never went out except to go to school, never folded my skirt, never twitted, was NEVER late, and my PSLE score wasnt that terrible and YET i got picked at. I had no fucking idea why. I obviously felt like life was so damn unfair, and yes i felt suicidal, when i had to get picked on even though i wasnt a terrible student.

I was also the first person to ever get detention after just 2 months of being in that school. It was over a super stupid reason because i touched something at the counter of the general office's table. So for a week, i was to tabao my break, lunch and have to stay back after school in the office. They were obviously doing this for a reason, so that i would distance away from my friends then. Isn't it such a ridiculous reason to give a student detention?

Luckily for me, i already had a few closer friends and they told me about how the teachers told them to stay away from me. If i didnt, i would probably not have any friends. But most of my friends knew me well enough to know i'm not such a person. I never knew school life would get so bad and the principal would be prejudice against me. All those years before starting school in SOTA, i was in kuo chuan primary and secondary and the principal and teachers were so much nicer. I never got into trouble in school. Some people probably think i'm one of the "guai kia"s in school or whatever.

Now you know the fucking principal who wears a facade is actually such a bitch.

AND THATS NOT ALL.

Yes, they call it an ARTS school,but we still have to do 8 academic subjects and our art form would just be one out of the many. Yet, before the school started out, they went around Singapore telling everyone that academics are SECONDARY, and art forms are the MAIN FOCUS of our curriculum.
thats like the greatest lie on earth.this has caused out of 110+ students in my cohort at the beginning of SOTA to end up only having 80 students right now.some of them left, got expelled, got retained.so if you think of it as a ratio, 1 of 3 students got expelled/retained/left the school.
I also know of many people in my cohort and teachers who look down on me. They think that i am the stupid one, the person who would probably get retained or expelled at the end of the year. They would come and ask "did you get promoted?" like as though they are expecting me to obviously get retained or something.
yeah like how much more fucked up can it get right?

And you guys would probably think, if did not retain over these 5 years and got promoted every year, people would stop looking down on me? no that is totally not true. Teachers carry on their mentality that i am a useless and stupid student because practically every year, i have other teachers teaching me so they do not even know me at all. Some of them even make it so obvious that they think of me as the dumbest in class. There was just 1 math exam,which i worked really hard for and i did the best in class and it spread through my cohort. People actually ASKED me if i CHEATED.i got fucking insulted and i dont find it funny at all.i actually got really pissed off and upset.

I guess no one in my school could really understand why i hated school so much, why i started giving up on everything. I even wanted to just get a just pass for my IB diploma but my parents urged me to prove all these fuckers who look down on me all wrong. So yes, i did. I worked relatively hard after my prelims and judging from the papers, i should be able to prove them wrong.when i get my results in January, i'm sure to throw my results in their faces. If i do even better than them that would be even better LOL.

Anyway, i might be taking a gap year next year to audition to music conservatories and hopefully get a scholarship. All the teachers urge me not to cause i guess they dont believe i will be determined enough to practice everyday cause i'm stupid to them anyway. But its ok,i will prove them wrong once again.

If you want to get into SOTA, just make sure you aren't as unlucky as me.i can swear i was never a bad student at the start and i didn't create any trouble and yet the whole sota community is like that.I seriously felt like i was in jail during those 5 years.i can hardly think of any good memories because the bad ones overwrite all of them. I call it School of the Academics btw.i think it fits the curriculum more,dont you guys think so too?


SIGH. I'm just glad its all over. AND I"M FINALLY FREE.i can finally put it all behind me and carry on with my life. I hope i will never meet such screwed up people anymore.

ANYWAY, i just finished my last biology paper today and my friends came over to all get our hairs dyed together. I dyed my whole hair red and got the ends bleached red to create a gradient but i guess its a bit of a failure to create gradient cause they dye was not enough for my long hair...i used la riche dye that i ordered online. Rachael dyed midnight blue and Mabel dyed black. Tong Lin was there just to help all of us with the process, hahaha. Had so much funzzzzzzzzzz. let me show you the outcome :D



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Going to meet Rachael and Mabel again tomorrow to shop for prom stuff at town.
WOOHOO i love my friends <3 and i love my hair colour heh