Setting up of StyleHacks

Hey guys!
Tsk,i really wanted to first post on my blog that i'm naming my blogshop as "StyleHacks" before uploading it all over twitter and instagram but i failed to do so as i've been so SO SO busy with my webstore. Go check it out (even though it's not fully completed but it has been 3 days' worth of work thusfar) @ www.stylehacks.net! Do follow us on @StyleHacks over twitter and instagram for more updates regarding the promotions, giveaways and sneak peeks. Do like the facebook page as well. Every support given is really appreciated :)

I'm actually super tired right now and all i want to do is to go to bed but i really have so much on my mind i need to type it all out.

On saturday i did my photoshoot and it took a crazy duration of 6 hours to complete. Boyfriend was there to do the whole setting up of the tripod, backdrop, photography, getting rid of the shoe stains after i step on the backdrop, helping me ensure my clothes/bag are in place, ironing ALL the clothes for me again cause i really failed to do so properly plus packing up the whole set up after we were done.
I really felt so guilty because i didn't want him to do so much work to begin with. I really underestimated the difficulty of the whole photoshoot. It's seriously not easy at all.

Honestly speaking,i was super worried about the photoshoot not for the set up,outcome of the pictures or whatsoever,but for the lack of confidence to model.
I really thought i couldn't do it. I can't stand people taking photos of me how could i ever model?! But with Ritche sitting in front of me with that tripod and camera just waiting patiently for me to be ready with a pose,i just had no choice but to force myself to put my shyness and insecurities aside and do things properly. Like i seriously can't drag on and be all shy and irritating after he sacrificed his time to help me with it. I could somehow feel comfortable with the photoshoot even though he's right there watching the whole thing. I just guess it's because of all the assurance, bits of confidence and all the support he has given me over the past 2 months and 3 weeks we've been together.
I really can't thank him more for that. Like that,is exactly what i really needed.

I really think,that my confidence is back at a more normal-human-being level. I really think it is. I thought i'll never be able to look at myself without criticizing at every damn thing. But i probably can now, i dont know how but i fucking love it. Maybe i might just have confidence someday!

Even though i had feedback the next day from a professional photographer (my uncle) that my photo quality and all is a lil unprofessional and the lighting of the photos are really bad so i have to do it all over again (so the whole 6hr long photoshoot was pretty much for nothing),but i guess i can or i will do better in my next photoshoot. I really have to!



On sunday,ritche was already working on my website from the moment he woke up (while i was still sound asleep) at like what,10am??? He worked on it all the way till we went out at 6pm and he still continued working on it on his mobile. <<< ultimate,siao liao,too serious
Today, before we went out in the morning for his medical appointment, he was STILL working on the website until we were actually late for his appointment cause he refused to go out without completing something for the site. We rushed back home instead of staying out because he wanted to work on the website!!! omgwtf.

OMG LEH THIS BOY.he spent at least a total of 26hours (or more) working on my website over the past 2days even though i really didn't ask him to do ANYTHING AT ALL plus despite all the work that's required for it,he didn't even complain. Not.even.once. He didn't even seem very frustrated. He works on the website as if he's gaming. I would definitely have been damn frustrated and agitated working on the website lol these html shit is just too difficult for me or i really can't find the patience to do it.

I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW HE DOES THAT.i really can't understand how he can be so willing to put in so much effort when at the end of the day it's all just for me. As he was working on the website,i could do nothing but to use my phone,give a bit of opinions here and there and contribute to nothing but he didn't even care. I honestly just feel so damn freaking guilty watching him sacrifice so much of his time on my website.
Just like any other guy,he LOVES gaming. Even after downloading a new game on his computer recently and dying to play it he still focused all of his time on my website instead. It has really been 0 gaming for the past few days.

AND SERIOUSLY,he's damn talented and i never knew he was so creative leh.i don't know how he can be so good at web designing and editing. He just figures anything and everything out.i really can't think of anything that he can't figure out since the day we got together.

Sigh,i really hope one day,me,this useless girlfriend,can really do so much for him just like how he has done for me. Ultimate boyfriend leh seriously ultimate boyfriend. No one has EVER done so much for me,no one has EVER not complained about helping me. Like anyone would definitely have kp-ed and started saying like "wah see i help you so much" etcetc "what do i get?" wtf.

Working with my boyfriend on the webstore over the past 3 days just made me feel so much closer to him somehow. I already felt like i've known him for years just shortly after we got together but now it feels like i've known him since forever.
There's just so much to this relationship that differs from every other,i don't think it's ever possible for me to walk away from it. I just feel so happy and blessed every single day without fail. The dates do not have to be eventful, just plain simple or just nothing at all. Yet, there's still so much love to it.

I am pretty sure that there are many people with failed relationships (like me) who have given up all hopes on guys/girls. I really thought i'll never meet a perfect guy for me (i dont mean perfect as making no mistakes) but now i really have. Just remember never to settle for less than you deserve and remember to go to hell if you've been a bitch/ass hole. Just never ever be like me in my previous relationship, accepting all the shit and thinking it'll improve in time to come cause no it never did even after waiting for 3 years and 5 months. The duration of the relationship should never be in consideration to me. If a person is sincere towards you, they'll never make such a big mistake anyway. If you're really so important to them,why would they risk losing you? Just look at all that Ritche has done for me and you know ultimate boyfriends do exist hehe. Go and get your own Ritche today! HAHAHA shit this sounds like an advert for my boyfriend nono he's mine.

Wanted to write a short post just to clear my mind but seems like that took me 3 hours to type LOL.
OKAY i still have a whole lot of things to do for the next few days before the launch,tentatively on sunday and giveaway event starting on friday!

Till next time :)